Hmm.. my dad's condition still isn't too good.. not much improvement. I know it takes time and I'm really trying not to rush things. But ah well... the doctor said a stroke patient takes about 2 - 8 months to recover. =/.. So worrying.. Hmm... Thank goodness there's music.. Everytime I feel worn out and stressed, that's where I turn to. I know that God is always with us no matter how bleak the situation seems to be.

Hmmm..... 2010 is a horrible year =(. I feel so lonely. I've thought of smsing people, but they're all preparing for their exams. I don't really wanna bother anybody. Actually, I really think that nobody cares about me. It's quite depressing, I've never felt so "by myself" before. I'm not complaining about my parents.. but you know.. I need friends too. Not many, just one would be enough. But I just can't think of anybody whom I can confide in.

=(. =(. Mel is so pitiful, lol. Hmm.. no matter what, I'm still strong, I'm still holding on. I can do this on my own.... I thought I had some really good friends, but I guess... =/.. they have forgotten me... I've never been important to anyone anyway.. what's so unusual about that? Just have to get used to a life of loneliness.. I feel like such a hermit.

Well well.. still keeping the faith, still hoping... I guess it's okay that nobody really loves me that way. I have to try to be more independent, I've never liked to depend on anybody anyway.

Anywayy... I've been quite health conscious (((: ... Well.. actually nothing more to say... I'M A SURVIVOR ^^.. though i may look weak and all..

I'm okay (: